Patiently anxious

I can

‘t even begin to express how busy my brain is these days.  Since receiving the call on Monday about the possibility of a super quick placement, I spent the week preparing the nursery.  I finally painted the walls I’ve been wanting to for two years.  I drug the crib (from the planned daycare jaunt) out of the attic.  I re-arranged and re-purposed furniture and accessories.  And I am absolutely in love with the room that will foster a love so true, for a child we don’t yet know.  Though I’ve never “nested” before, I can’t help but imagine this is what it feels like.  Cleaning those parts of your home that rarely get cleaned.  De-cluttering dresser drawers and deep freezers.  Finishing those long over-due projects that have been on your list for months.  Some might see this as jumping the gun, but like the author of Luke writes, I will “Be dressed in readiness, and keep your lamps alight. And be like men who are waiting for their master when he returns from the wedding feast, so that they may immediately open the door to him when he comes and knocks.” Luke 12:35-36  Basically he is saying to 1) be prepared, 2) ensure maintenance of those particulars surrounding you and 3) walk in expectation.

I spoke to our attorney’s assistant this week regarding the hometown baby, and we have a meeting with her on the 23rd.  From what I gather, the baby is still in temporary custody of a family member, but is a ward of the court system.  DHS is not involved in this particular case, which could be a blessing or a curse.  I am so eager to meet with her and see what the possibility is of bringing this little girl home with us!

Of course we are working diligently to raise the funds; with each passing day I am taken completely by surprise as to the support and love that is showered on us!  We are planning a chili supper and dessert auction in the tiny town I grew up in.  My mamma still lives there, and my older sister isn’t far from home.  There are still a great many people I have kept in contact with through the years, and I am confident the community with show up and show love!  If you are in the River Valley, you should make your way to the NB Fire Department on Sunday, November 2 from 4-8.  Eat some chili, buy some pies, and help us bring our baby home!  We’ve also got a yard sale scheduled for October and a chili supper and silent auction for February.  The raffle is in full swing, and we have so much going on it’s hard to keep it all straight!

I have am hoping to have a little conversation with an adoptee this week, to see what she has to say about being chosen.  Hopefully the next time I sit down to update, it won’t just be a general musing of the life of an anxious mother-to-be!  I’d be happy to address or research anything you have questions about, so please, leave a question, let me know what you’re thinking.

Thank you for following our journey, and believing for our baby!

With love and thanksgiving,



Vacation, 2014


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